.. rambler ..

Why do I get the feeling I'm not very good at this blogging thing. I want to be dedicated, I really really do. I'm just not I suppose...

I wrote my last exam today - my jaw hurts from clenching it for the last 48 hours...I do that when I get stressed out. Maybe it will feel better in the morning. The exam went really well though. i made it through 27 questions before hitting one I didn't know the answer to. And it had a typo in it, which explained my confusion. I was in and out in finished in less than an hour - brillant! My mum waited in my Rez room while I wrote it, and then we packed the last few things into the car and headed off home. It is SUCH a relief to be home. I love being home. My cat has finally forgiven me for deserting her and won't leave me alone. My room smells like vanilla laundry sheets and not like no-one lives there. The bed isn't made and there is stuff all over the floor, but I really am working on tidying it up.

I'm half done one of my goals for the week - I picked up the photo's to send to Kate, I just haven't sent them yet. With any luck they'll be sent on Friday. I'm going out with my mum that day, to quilt show, to a quilt shop and to *drumroll* a scrapbooking store :) I'm very excited! Unfortunately I'm not buying supplies for myself, but for another project on the go. I've been recruited to make a guestbook for a 30th wedding anniversary party. It should be fun - I'm going to make it half scrapbook half guestbook. Lots of lines for people to write messages, and lots of pages for the happy couple (Nathan's Aunt and Uncle) to put their favourite photo's in. Hopefully they will like it...

.. listed ..

I got these categories from Nichole W's blog [http://nicholew.typepad.com], and I thought maybe it would be fun to do my own list, so here goes:

5 THINGS YOU LOVE

• Nathan
• My family
• Bubbles
• Markers
• Scrapbooking

5 THINGS YOU HATE

• Pickles
• Worms
• People being loud while I'm trying to sleep
• Not having money
• That I want to eat healthy, but can't make myself do it

5 THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND

• Physics
• Why I care so much about what other people think of me
• How anyone can eat seafood. EWWW!
• Why it is so hard to just let go...
• How I managed to earn the scholarship that I earned

5 THINGS ON YOUR DESK

• My computer moniter
• 4 computer speakers
• A jar full of clear and blue glass rocks
• A jar full of paint brushes
• Some dust

5 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS

• Nathan
• Simon
• My Mum
• Anna
• Darra

5 THINGS YOU ARE DOING RIGHT NOW

• Writing this list
• Thinking I should get ready to go out later
• Wishing I could eat a whole pizza [I'm sooo hungry!]
• Listening to Ashlee Simpson - Love Makes the World Go Round
• Playing with my necklace

5 NEGATIVE FACTS ABOUT YOU

• I interrupt people without meaning to
• I'm much too defensive
• I dwell on things that aren't even important
• I am SUCH a procrastinator
• I care too much about what other people think of me, so there are an awful lot of things I don't do...

5 POSITIVE FACTS ABOUT YOU

• I love with my whole heart
• When people need me, I do my best to be there for them
• I understand what I need to do to be the best person I can be. And I'm working on becoming that person
• I am a smart person. And I'm not afraid to admit it anymore
• I am determined to make something of myself, and to do it because I WANT TO, not because someone else thinks I should.

5 THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

• Get married
• Have a family
• Learn to give unconditionally
• Be happy in my own skin
• Be published!!!

5 THINGS YOU CAN'T DO

• Change the past...But I can apologize for my mistakes
• Walk in a straight line. [haha, I am always bumping into things!]
• Keep my room clean
• Stop myself from getting sad. But I'm learning how to stop STAYING sad.
• Snap my fingers.

5 THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT TURN YOU ON

• White teeth
• A sense of humor
• Sexy cars and bassy music
• Sparkly eyes
• Honesty

5 FAVORITE MOVIES

• Cinderella Story
• The Notebook
• Simply Irresistable
• Sleeping Beauty
• Sweet November

NAME 5 THINGS YOU ARE SCARED OF

• Spiders
• Thunderstorms, but only when I'm alone
• Losing the people I love
• Disappointing the people that care about me
• Change...

And that's really all I have to say for now...

.. almost there ..

Three exams down, and one to go. Studied for a week for Friday's exam and it was horrible. Rotten. Terrible. Spent two and a half days studying for Monday's exam. It went well. Spent just over one day studying for yesterday's exam and it went great - even easier than the tests I've been writing in that class all year. One more next Wednesday and I am officially done my first year. One year down and three and a half to go...

For some strange reason I'm finding myself addicted to the show Starting Over, on TLC and CTV. Maybe because I can see some much of myself in all of those women. Feel trapped inside yourself and wanting to move on and be free but being scared because it's so hard to leave your comfort zone. But I'm learning, and I'll get there one day.

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My dad and brother are working on finishing the basement. It's a slow process, but when they finish I get to move into Simon's old room, which is bigger. Maybe I'll actually have anough room for all of the stuff that I have. I'm trying to let go of a lot of things, but it's hard. Something else to work on I suppose. Maybe I need to work on not buying things before I start trying to get rid of them. I guess that's a good place to start, especially since I have about fifty dollars to my name.

Tara Whitney proposed a challenge to set a goal for one project to do each week. I actually have two projects. One is to pick up my reprints and send them off to Kate for our photo swap. The second is to unpack at least two of the boxes crowding up my room. We'll see how that goes!

.. booooring ..

Today seems like a long day. Nathan brought me home at 4.50am thsi morning, and then i went back to bed for a while. I know I should be studying, but I don't want to. Nathan has WHIMIS training tonight anyway, so I will have lots of time later on to study too.

I don't even think anyone reads this blog. I guess that's not a bad thing, but it would be kind of cool if someone did. blah blah blah i am boring. bye for now..

.. grumpy ..

My brother has a lizard, and this lizard eats crickets. Unfortunately for me, one of them escaped at some point yesterday. It somehow got INSIDE the walls of my room. I only realized this after spending an HOUR trying to find the stupid thing at 1.30 in the morning. I was not impressed, and it took me ages to fall asleep with it chirping away happily....

I've been busy the past week. I got sicl, but I think I'm on the mend. I've been studying for my exams. I have three of them within six days and that stinks. I should probably be studying right now actually. *sigh*